nus chem thang is really cheem. everything just sort of wheezed past... stuff like solid phase extraction. gaschromatography. and the fact that I'm alone D:

sigh.

it's one more month to a celebration of the birth of a really great, invaluable person.

ME! :D

meanwhile I can see thoughts forming on people's mind like "ego icon" on calebfoo and such. but instead of boring people with my tiring life of studies and stressful life of band, I shall bore you with my list of birthday wishes. WHEE.

1) chocolates.

chocolates are a must, hello. great aphrodisiacs and endorphins ensure my high high day. I remember receiving like 50 ferrero rochers in total for my 14th birthday... o.o 16+24+5+5. that was crazy. but fun :D it's like eating 5 ferrero rochers everyday and I wasn't emo. so chocolates like...

-box of 24 ferrero rochers
-godiva chocolates
- ...

are loved. :D

2) soft toys.

actually this is a strict no-no. I'm sick of receiving small plushies for presents cause I know I'll just give them away for someone else's birthday present xP I do keep a few cuter ones though (I remember the eeyore from last year). but I won't mind really big plushies I guess :D unless they're ugly.

3) hand made stuff

I think handmade stuff is the most appreciated, cos it's the one where someone spent most time on and it's more sincere and such.  so whee :D

4) Clothes

I don't mind anything from zara, topman or esprit. I'm mostly size m around there. Shoe size 8.5, and I'm eyeing that black leathered converse shoes :D

5) expensive techie stuff

oh I'll love you to pieces if you give me an iPod nano or something. or a new laptop.

6) 3 genie wishes.

oh I'll wish for true love, loads of money and happily ever afters.

7) a billion dollars.

I'll suspect that you're treating me as a prostitute or something.

8) random.

jiehan says:
no. 1 birthday wish -> a long lost senior wishes you happy birthday
jiehan says:
zomg woosh
jiehan says:
congrats!
jiehan says:
happy birthday
jiehan says:
jh ftw

9) a cake.

I loveeeeee my awfully chocolate cake last year. it was the sexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

10) 12am smses.

like a wholetruckload of them? :D it'll be really sweeet.

.... I'm lazy to continue. and I totally watched sleeping beauty on disney channel just now. childhood memories<3 shall go tidy my room which is in pig-sty stage. and bake cookies tomorrow!

it's a really bad day when you know your sprained back worsened, and you fail your english test for the 1st time in your life, and things just ain't going well.

thanks to tuba section + joseph for being fun for dinner. and joseph for the talk. and kahloon for beyonce's album which I practically can't live with now<3 and the random girl who was mesmerised by my playing today.

I'll be back with more optimism. soon.

it's thursday. it's just chemistry test left tomorrow, and ihc on wednesday, meaning liberation is near.

it's been a very.. trying and tiring term. I can't wait to end it. managing to incur the wrath of adc, no good.

and my eat-excessively-when-not-in-good-mood habit is back. so now I'm bloated and trying to study chemistry..

which may very likely end up as another screwed subject.

thanks kahloon for beyonce's album, which I'm addicted to now. and jay for the donut. and most importantly ..

screw life! urgh.

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you babe
I don't wanna play that part

a 15 minute walk around junction8 proved how deprived I am nowsadays.

it was ogling at levis promotion (trade in ANY shirt to get $20 off a shirt zomg!), fox, cotton on, ... and then all the sakae sushi and fish and co. looking really. really. REALLY appetising.

was wearing my hood up these few days NOT to act emo >< was to hide really ugly hair. so I went to this place at bishan in which my mum recommended. he was not bad in cutting. but it was really expensive >< and ugh its 2weeks before my really short sides grow long again... I look like someone from NS.

and my sis has started working at aston's from 5-10pm like everyday. by the time she reaches home I'll be sleeping so yeah i sorta miss her =\

I HATE TESTS. it's screwing up my life x| grrr.

yeah... so what. sighhs tired of life.

thinking of youuu

it's so dead! urgh it just proves how much I've been trying to stay alive besides tumultous piles of homework and severe sleep deprivation. okay fine maybe not that deprived, but I'm the heavy sleeper who needs 12hours a day remember? explains that pimple on my forehead now. and dying need for hygiene stuff (like cutting my HAIR).

and band stuff can really kill. sec 1 orientation just ended and it was really ironic standing there facing them. I don't know why. what I know is that i gotta start studying for tests ): omg.

I NEED MY TRIP TO ORCHARD ROAD, STARBUCKS, AND MANY MOREEEEEEEEEEEEE.

my life is gone! grrr. 3 more weeks to end of tests........................................ I'll survive.

hopefully...

meanwhile. bitches don't stand in my way. tired of dealing with you. not like I offended you in anyway. and you're going to grow up into the horrible person that no one likes, whereas I lead on my successful social circle life, so who wins?

erm.. huiyao?: heavy influence from ihc, I think. conflicts! x|

today was just a typical stay home rest do nothing day... ate like alot for dinner (half a roast chicken omg >< the fats!) and tv-ed and comp-ed.

something interesting will be out of what I found after googling "qi fan" on blogs:

"okay then soon, go to the concert hall alr.

...not.

my "celebration" today was just feeling really comfortable in my sec 2 uniform. it feels awesome to not wear that makes-you-look-40-years-older thing again. I'll never be a senior at heart I guess, it's just not me to feel so old.

and then after that I went home to sleep for 4hours or so, was so damn tired after what maths test, chinese test and tumultous pile of work to do plan and complete during this festive season. didn't go back primary school since my P6 teacer had left and thus not alot of meaning to go back there huh.

I'm not looking forward to CNY cause there's not much to do. relatives are in malaysia so no point, which means no angpaus too, and it just means I'll stay home and do work like a typical hc mugger. unless someone ask me out to bai nian *hintssssss*

and anyway I'm still very bothered by the fact that such immaturity and jealousy can surface. as if you all can't help it huhhh. that's how you all have become who you are today. so.... too bad.

band juniors yay!

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

it's sunday.. which means tomorrow will be a horrible day.

at least there's no afternoon lessons tomorrow, or I'll seriously just consistently buy MCs for every single monday.

and it's only week 3 or something and there's maths test. gosh. I hardly absorbed anything from the lessons past. last time I checked my memory vault of lessons consist of tany.k. jokes, jaya sarcasm, rosey's class of cheena muggers, ...

and nothing else. which means if I care that much about my academics I need to buck up. plus that bitch teacher is being pmstic because of her affair or something grrr. AND. I'm falling ill again.

at least band practices are okay. and stuff (: it's that many days to december holidays ><

I'm happy. No more worries. NEVER. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

it's overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. it's cheery optimism y'allllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sigh.

as written. a new year starts and I can't wait for its end. normal years will be like, okay it's a new year, I'll wait for whatever comes. school starts, blahblahblah, and soon enough it'll be my normal school routine.

this year, NO. all the shit gets thrown in my face. and my hair's goneeeeeee.

so as huiyao takes up cheery and encouraging, I should balance it out with pessimism and bitchiness, yes no?

a story to kick start this post.

Tze Han says:
cuz if u happen to get the classroom on first floor
Tze Han says:
closest to the JC side
Tze Han says:
you'll notice the window is broken
Tze Han says:
by the person ur talking to now
Tze Han says:
=D
Qifannn                           my prerogative. says:
!!!
Qifannn                           my prerogative. says:
how did you break the window o.o
Qifannn                           my prerogative. says:
no punishment?!?
Tze Han says:
well just a small portion
Tze Han says:
i reported le
Tze Han says:
but they never repair :D
Tze Han says:
ya no punishment 9=YET
Tze Han says:
okay basically
Tze Han says:
i was laming and crapping
Tze Han says:
"LET ME SHOW YOU HOW TO BREAK A WINDOW!"
Qifannn                           my prerogative. says:
as usual xD
Tze Han says:
*stupidly smashes window with my fist*
Tze Han says:
and a small piece of window flew outside the classroom lol

I spent my 1st day of 2009 slacking around. waking up, reading breaking dawn, eating ferrero rochers, chips, more chocolates, ... etc. lifestyle of a pig, for the very last time until the next break comes. which is like never, considering march hols will be taken up by band prac, june.. wwill be for studying I guess.

was smsing huiyao regarding next year. sighs. I really don't want to be sec 4.

but at least there're a couple of good teachers to look forward to. and irritating classmates. and piles of work. and band prac. and...

yeahyeah. anyway go youtube and look for this piano solo called "River Flows In You". it's really nice, it was taken into consideration to be used as Bella's lullaby in twilight, but some lame thing with orchestra accompaniment which sounded really lame got chosen.

playing 7 hand poker with tzehand and losing terribly o.o

so I guess tomorrow'll be a more fulfilling day. ARGH SEC 4 UNIFORM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *weeps*

and no dejun, an experience with bishan gay beforehand told me it was nothing harrowing.of course there's a need to accept the fact that I'm so gorgeous looking *evil laughsssss*

the two days were torturous. a pierce that stabbed right at my heart, burning me right down to the pits. thanks to the many many people who somehow made things better.

like my section of course, for being high and funny and showing face by laughing at my jokes. and for the midnight supper at 7-11, and for the whole bishan gay incident. cuichang the daredevil who got his ass admired >< hahaha. yongyao the superb eater with his spring chicken. jiahong for the sharing of sleeping bag while playing daidee (! which both rounds in which I played I won yay) and chats. dejun for the song-singings and tissues for my flu, and basically the whole section for still being cooperative.

and many others of course, like joseph for his 2 packs of tissues ( so sorry ><), brandon for his care and song singing too (whee paris hilton!), jay for his soon to come bali souveneir, bryan for his randomnessand care toooo. and yes tzehan for the prettaye auzzie pen holder xD

anyway it's overrrr and I'm ill and tired, can't wait to flop on my bed. machu picchu wheeeeee.

went out with jamie earlier in the afternoon to walk around town. at least there was company and a nice small present :D thanks!

other than that the day went crazy with almost stepping on a cockroach and jeans wetted by seating on a wet seat (god, it better not be pee) and a nightmare involving werewolves and vampires. I swear I'm reading too much twilight series...

and sec 4 farewell madness. goodness. I just hope they appreciate it.

today is not my dream xmas but well good enough. I have my ferrero rochers to live with. and my clarinet I guess (:

and congrats to jamie tan for her invitation to NYAA! :D

and merry xmas to whoever smsed me in the morning. sorry but I wake up at 12 on a daily basis ><

I thought the hollow hole has long healed. Now it chose to rip itself open, with all insecurities and pessimism curling into a single dart, piercing through.

I stepped into the room that seemingly take after the looks of the garden of eden. As I approach my subject of love, the room twisted and changed. Everything vanished from sight, engulfing me in darkness as the emptiness managed to seep into me, drowning me with it, tearing the imperfect heart into pieces. The feeling had been long gone for more than a year already. Shattered fragments of my heart managed to disappear into nothingness as I gasped for a breath of the world, of the room that can elevate me from this hell.

Then something jerked, forcing my eyelids open and cutting a scream back at my throat. I was on 852. Fell asleep, nighmare. Almost woke up screaming.

It was terrible... I remembered now how everything had been. And it better not go back to the way it is.

adelyn: catch the post for present details x) hahas BUY ME GUM!
whoever: lj don't support sighs.

life is very tiring lately.

still trying to readjust my bio clock. waking up before 2pm is painful, get all these headaches and muscle sores and what nots. maybe I'm diseasedddd.

and not to mention all the weird dreams I had. dreamed that I intended to go england but landed up in japan and japan looks like bugis. oh god. too much twilight, maple and overthinking is life threatening.

mum's birthday. me and my sis designed this vase and mirror and gave it to her, plus an ikea heart shaped pillow. not bad I'll say. went to some vegetarian restaurant to eat with aunt and uncle. food was so-so... blah. can you all tell I'm blogging for the sake of blogging?

on a random note, if you seek true love, transform yourself into a female maple character and see what happens: